New Year, Old Reminders
2019 is rapidly coming to a close. I am, like most of you, reflecting on the year that has passed and looking toward the new one approaching. We’re entering a new year and a new decade. Some people think that makes it a bigger deal than another year transition. However, I remember the big drama of Y2K and that seems like only a blink ago. I turned 45 this year and that has meant for me reaching an age where I really do feel old enough to know better. The good news is I know I’m still young enough to make plenty more mistakes :) “Knowing better” for me means I’ve lived long enough to know that life is really not as complicated as we make it and we are our greatest capacity and resource to live our best life. So, as I transition into 2020, I’m choosing to reflect on lessons learned, take an accounting of all of my blessings, and direct my energy towards using that wisdom for an even richer, fuller, joyful, and meaningful life.
2019 was an amazing year for me! Though there were definitely some hard times and painful lessons learned. Recently, I was listening to a podcast and one of the guests was remarking how all things in life work toward your best good. While I’ve sat with many a client who’s experienced seemingly senseless unfathomable pain and trauma, I think there is some deep wisdom to this bigger picture. Specifically, she said, “Everything is happening for me”. That concept was pivotal for me. I can easily throw a grand ol’ pity party for one when things seem to be not going my way. In those moments, I often think, “Why is this happening to me?”
The reframing of things happening for me was a monumental issuance of grace to me. With this reframing, I’m able to look back at this year and be grateful for even the hard times. With this reframing, I’m able to look forward to next year and wonder how I can leverage the hard times for my benefit so I don’t have to experience them as intensely as before.
In reflection: In 2019, I
- made a major career change that has turned out to be a great move for me.
- reconnected in meaningful ways with long-standing dear friends.
- traveled a bit.
- paid off a lot of debt.
- fell in love — hard.
- trusted myself.
- loved myself.
- chose myself.
- actively expressed my gratitude to the Universe more.
- became a blonde.
- spoke truth to power even when my voice shook.
- made new friends.
- laughed a LOT.
- got a beautiful and meaningful new tattoo.
- centered my pleasure.
- Struggled with myself to love my body.
In 2019, I also,
- struggled in parenting my child in a way that she most needs.
- felt lonely more times than I wanted.
- Doubted myself.
- Stayed in love but ended a relationship…and then ended it again …and then ended it one last time.
- Silenced myself.
- Lost my temper unnecessarily.
- Gave into negative emotions more than was healthy for me.
- Gained a lot of weight.
- Belittled myself for gaining weight.
- Struggled to make myself my own priority.
All of this good and not-so-good comes with me into 2020. I’m more than good with that. I’m a work in progress. Life is nothing but moments of passing joys and passing challenges. It all makes me human being. A woman evolving. So rather than get caught up in regrets or resolutions, I’m focusing on these reminders to myself as I move into this new year and new decade. I hope some of these resonate with you.
- Love is always a great first response.
- Gratitude is critical to continued joy and success.
- Everything is happening for me.
- God/The Creator/The Universe loves me.
- Laugh! Like a lot.
- Move! Dance, yoga, walk, jog, Zumba, lift weights, whatever! Just move!
- Home-cooked meals are always better for my body and my soul.
- I am more than my body.
- The greatest love affair of my life is just around the next corner.
- Accountability for my actions is self-care.
- Orgasms are amazing!
- Pleasure is my birthright.
- “Because I want to” is a good enough reason.
- My job is to live my best life, not theirs.
- Slow down.
- Do it scared anyway.
The Dr is N and I want to know: What are you going to remind yourself of in 2020?